I Don’t Want to Be Strong Anymore

You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it - Unknown

That moment where you feel like you’ve been running for years. That moment where you feel like you are ready to just lie down and not get up. That moment when someone tries to tell you to be strong. And your immediate response is I don’t want to be strong anymore. I don’t want to run anymore. I don’t want to fight anymore. Does that easy life not exist for me? Am I not worth a break? Do I get a chance to not have to struggle? I look around and see everybody else through my tears laughing. Why do I have to be the one to wake up early and go to bed late. Why do I have to be the one to figure out everything? Why am I even having things to figure out? I am just tired of running. 

Is this the life that God had wanted for me? Am I supposed to just run and fight until I die? Am I supposed to keep moving and never stop for a moment. When it feels like there’s trial after trial after trial in your life it can get weary. It can get hard. And being strong is no longer an adjective. It’s a curse. A curse we didn’t want or ask for, but yet somehow it has become the assignment in your life. The assignment God has placed on you is not because he hates you. Not at all. It is not because he doesn’t think you are deserving of an easy life. It is because you can. I know that doesn’t sound encouraging, knowing that there are others out there who cannot do what you can do but you have the ability. Therefore, you have the task. 

It’s not an easy task but it’s a task that you are able to get done.

It’s like when you give your most responsible child more responsibilities. That is the role that you are in. You are that responsible child. You are that talented child. You are the child that He knows can get to the finish line. That is why you are the chosen one. He gave you everything you need and you are using it to the best of your ability. Nothing will go to waste with you at the helm. Not everyone can raise those kids. Not everyone can do that job. Not everyone can accomplish that goal. But you can. That is why you have been given that assignment. The assignment is not easy. But have you noticed God doesn’t do things the easy way? He hardened Pharaoh's heart when Moses was trying to set his people free. He had Gideon go to war against thousands of soldiers with only 300.  He had a shepherd boy named David fight a seasoned soldier and giant named Goliath.

Nothing that you are doing is in vain. Nothing that you’re fighting is pointless. It all has purpose, and it all has reason. We just have to keep trusting and keep going. Your reward is waiting for you. Your prize is coming. While you are going, look for the blessings in the little things. Because God doesn’t give you all work and no play. He gives you miracles. He gives you love. He gives you peace. He gives you strength and he gives you joy. A lot of times it looks like you can’t find them. But they are there if we search for them. Sometimes we don’t even have to search that hard for them. When you are tired, please take a moment. Pause and catch your breath. Then get up and keep going. I know you’re tired of being strong but strong is your name. Strong is who you are. And it’s hard to be anyone else. But remember nothing last forever. This too shall be over someday.